My life is--and will continue to be, for the next twenty or so years--measured by seasons. Accountants count their years according to the annual tax season. Healthcare workers record each new cold and flu season. Retailers and markets tally each Christmas season as another one comes and goes.
My year begins in September, of course, as it has since I was not quite four years old. Every year Thanksgiving just serves as a reminder that we have a looooong way to go before we can take an extended breather. I notice the holiday season, of course, but it doesn't have any added significance other than a short break from work and a reunion with family and friends, who I seem to backburner every time a new school year begins and I forget how to manage my busy time after a relatively lackadaisical summer. I barely blink as March Break comes and goes, a pause that is more like a teaser than an actual holiday, since it is spent catching up on marking and lesson planning. May 2-4 weekend reminds us that our lives are once again soon to change, as they do every year, but we soon forget when we return to school and try desperately to get some of our most apathetic students to care half as much about earning a credit before the end of June as we do for them. And finally, just like the year before, the end of another school year bites the dust.
This one will be a particularly difficult one for me. As I have mentioned before, this time of year is always bittersweet. I really need and feel I somewhat deserve the break offered by my summer holidays, but I will miss some of my students terribly. That might sound pathetic or weird to some people; technically, students are considered "clients" or customers by the school board, and our job is to simply deliver curriculum expectations in a safe and equitable classroom environment. But here is where it gets confusing: our job is also to act "in loco parentis," which means to act in place of parents. So we are to act simultaneously like business people--salespeople hocking the product of education--and family members watching over our young as they move through a significant stage of life under our care.
I take this responsibility to heart. Our teachers' union warns us not to come into physical contact with a student. But if one of my students cries, I offer them a hug, as I hope any decent parent would. And I will likely keep in touch with several of them--the ones I feel are people who could use an advocate in life, or just the ones whose company I genuinely enjoy.
I don't want to be BFFs with my students, but I like the idea that a student would graduate and mature to be the type of person that I would like to see or hear from again. There is comfort in knowing that as my years come and go, measured by each passing June, and my students--also my clients and my pseudo-children--move on in life, that a few will have had a close enough connection to keep in touch. Otherwise, what type of businessperson/parent am I?
Here's a quote I read a while ago,
ReplyDeleteThe mediocre teacher tells.
The good teacher explains.
The superior teacher demonstrates.
The great teacher inspires.
- William Arthur Ward
I think it's safe to say that you are one of those inspiring teachers. You may miss certain students terribly, but certain students--myself included--are going to miss you terribly as well. Even though a semester may be short, spending that 75 (or more) minutes everyday with a certain teacher definitely has a huge impact on the students. Some of us may even spend more time with you everyday, than we do with our own parents. It seems completely natural that a student who spends this much time with a teacher who is as kind, caring, energetic, inspiring, kind-hearted and fun-loving as you, would want to become close with them. Every kid can look back on their past years at school and pick out the teachers who have managed to touch them in a way that is not only curriculum related, but also on a personal level as well. Kids, especially high school ones, are not stupid; we are completely capable of recognizing the teachers who really care. Others may call you a push-over, but I think that you appear that way because you care so much and put so much effort into everything that you do. You often go above and beyond what other teachers do, whether it's your organizing Model UN, staying after school to help students who need it, bringing in treats from Weil's bakery or just being someone that students talk to and confide in.
The end of the year is going to be so tough this year. You've had such an impact on my life, you've truly inspired me. Levs, I'm going to miss you more than I can imagine possible. You can definitely be my pseudo-mom any day!
Chelse, you butthead, now I'm all weepy! I'm glad the two of us didn't get into a car accident with one another today after school...exchanging insurance information would have made graduation pretty awkward...
ReplyDeleteSorry I made you all weepy, but I was speaking from the heart. It's going to be really hard to say goodbye. And now I'm all weepy too, look what you've started!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad too, although it would've made a good story for later.
Seriously Levs, why did you have to tell me that?
ReplyDeleteYou've got me blubbering and it's not even grad yet.
I may not be the most emotional person in this world, or feel a lot of feelings, but I can confidently say that you are one human being I would not like to lose contact with.
ReplyDeleteAnd if I live to be a writer (considering I am beginning to get memory gaps which dysfunctions me lol), more or less, You would be one of the very few people I would like to tell, hoping you'd be proud of me, and don't be surprised to see you're name on one of the first few pages. But that would require you to pick up my book, and that is solely up to you.
Or, you can just walk into a book store and see it there and come back. anything works..
P.S. just in case I don't get there, I want to let you know you have contributed to reasons that I am not dead today.
I second Chelsea and Hina - I am so happy I had the chance to be your student, not once but twice this year! I definitely learned a lot and it was always enjoyable. Especially in Writer's Craft, I was exposed to so many other mediums I had never considered before, including blogging which I now LOVE!
ReplyDeleteThanks also for always being there to talk, I really appreciate it. I am planning on keeping in touch for sure! (I mean really, now you are legally allowed to tell me teacher gossip - how can I say no to that?! Hahaha!) Thanks again for a great year, Miss Levely!
so i think its official, your my mom, seeing as i already called you mom by accident :P. so this year has been an adventure to remeber. from MUN to our after school story telling group (Cheslea <3, tyler. moe. kai. gyatri. you. n I)to almost all our hang outs, im really glad to say your like a mother/sister figure in my life and i never want to forget you. even though i am 5000 km away in the desert i will always and forever keep in touch with KJL :D i know its difficult to say good bye but good byes arn't forever soon we will be saying hello :D thank you for being a great role model and giving me all the oppurtunities you gave me this year. XOXOXO gossip girl :)
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